Need to Get this Out

Yes, I consider myself to be resilient because damn it, I am strong!!! I am fighting an uphill battle but in no way am I trying to portray myself as somebody who is not in pain from my abuse. I am in deep, deep pain but the fact that I keep trudging on and that I build opportunities for myself is what makes me resilient. We all have our off days (maybe an optimist would say our “on days”). In my experiences, I feel as if I need to show a face that I am ok, that I am happy but inside I am breaking apart. Here, I am not showing any faces. I am a survivor, I am not ashamed of it, I am not shy about it, I keep going, but to explain the hurt is sometimes too much to bear so I do it gently at my pace. Its okay to admit that I am in pain because resiliency doesn’t mean immunity.

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