So, as a survivor of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse I was taught that I am worthless. I was demoralized constantly. It was a HUGE step for me to admit and realize that I am not all negative but that I am worthy of many things and I have a lot to offer. It is so hard though when people take advantage of my good nature.
I’d like to mention my accomplishments which make me proud:
- I applied at the Gap many times for two years before acing the interview and working there for over a year. I am proud of my persistence
- I decided at 27 years old to become observant of Judaism, completely by my own choice. I was born Jewish but was never practicing. There is so much to learn, so much to gain. It is GIGANTIC for me!! I finally felt part of something real and accepted for who I am. In a world lacking morals, I chose to be real to myself. I am proud of my growth.
- At 20 years old, I made the decision to stop talking to my mother. It was her boyfriend who raped me and she protected him. I am most proud of the fact that I realized she will never be mentally well and that there was no room in my life for her. I needed to grow into a positive person and with her in my life, it simply wasn’t possible. I am proud of putting myself first.
- At 40 years old, I decided to return to university to finish the degree I started 20 years prior. When I was originally pursuing my degree, let’s just say I wasn’t exactly the studious type (unless you count the study of parties) and I had a constant feeling of regret at not completing my studies. Oh yeah, my major? LEISURE STUDIES, I mean come on, how can I take that seriously??!! My GPA after so many failed classes was 0.75!!! That in itself is an accomplishment. So, yes, last year, I returned to complete my unfinished degree and have only A’s and B’s. I am proud of finishing what I started and proving to myself that I am absolutely not a failure!!! (update: I transferred into Therapeutic Recreation)
Is there something you are proud of that you can post?